2015 and 2016

2015 has been the biggest year of my life. This year has officially been the most overwhelming year of my life, yet. Never forget the ‘yet’. 2015 should be crowned as ‘the year that changes it all’. No, truly. Usually, one changes ever-so-slightly. Usually, the change is so slow that one does not even feel it in its entirety. Change usually feels like gradually adding sugar to subtly sweeten some coffee. Change feels like years of hard-work and dedication that would be showcased just for a few seconds. Kinda like the Olympics.
           But this year, change has engulfed me. It has swallowed me whole. Kinda like how snakes swallow their prey.
          Let me explain. I’ve either laughed so hard that my head starts hurting, or I’ve cried so hard that my entire body feels drained out. I’ve begun seeing everything in black and white. A thing, anything, is either too good or too bad. Never grey. Never in-between.
        And I was never like that before. I believed in balance. I believed in calmness. But now, the scales are either on the ‘Amazing’ side, or the ‘Sucky’ side. Sigh.
        And since everyday has some elements of good and bad, I tend to get sad pretty easily, because the bad moments seem to last a lot longer than the good ones.
         And since the bad moments seem to last longer, I get sad very often. That’s not a good sign. And its not just sadness. Its a mix of –

Sadness + Loneliness + Over-thinking + Self-doubt + Bunch of shitty people =

Me feeling like I’m not good enough. Like I’m not worthy enough.

So, basically what I’m trying to say is that, for 2016, I have no resolutions except one. I resolve to be Happy. No matter what. I will try my hardest in order to feel like I am worthy. I am awesome. And, only I can label myself.

And I have.
I’m a Youtuber.
I’m a blogger.
I’m a writer.
I’m a reader.
I’m a music-listener.
I’m a anime-watcher.
I’m a Pink-sauce pasta lover.
And, I’m awesomer.

PS. I ran out of words ending with -er.

So, this is my last post for the year 2015. Let’s all just aim to be a little better this year. And a little kinder. And a little gentler. And a little happier. 

Thanks for the love and support everyone. You all are amazing.
2016, here I come. With guns blazing.

What is your resolution for the New Year? Do comment. And as always, do subscribe to my YouTube channel as well as follow my blog. Its free anyway!

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Thank you!

Thank you all so much for watching and appreciating my videos! I’ve reached my goal of 100 subscribers for this year! I’m greatly humbled and honoured by all the positive feedback I’ve been getting. Now, I can get a custom URL! If you type YouTube.com/RamexaRocks, my channel pops up! Yay!

Once again, thank you all!

And, if you guys haven’t seen it yet, do check out my newest video – ‘My Talents’

4th Video: My ‘Talents’

Hello everyone! Since this year is coming to an end, I’ve been self-reflecting a lot recently. Don’t we all?

We all tend to look at the Highs and Lows of the year that has been. But rather than just making a look-back at 2015, I decided to add a twist by showcasing some of my unique ‘talents’. So, without further ado, here’s my newest video!

If you all like this video, please LIKE, COMMENT, SUBSCRIBE & SHARE! It’s FREE anyway! Do comment some of your special ‘talents’.

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PPS. I’ve used a new video-editor called Wondershare Filmora. Needless to say, they’ll be a lot more effects in this, as well as the future videos.

I seem.

I seem to be made of glass,
Broken easily.
I seem to be made of paper,
Crumpled easily.
I seem to be made of fire,
Burned easily.
I seem to be made of ice,
Cooled easily.
I seem to be made of blue,
Saddened easily.
I seem to be made of red,
Laughing easily.
I seem to be made of tears,
Crying easily.
I seem to be made of smiles,
Broadened easily.
I seem to be made of pain,
Hurt easily.
I seem to be made of strength,
Endeavouring easily.
I seem to be made of hate,
Consuming easily.
I seem to be made of love,
Giving easily.

Cease to exist

Places and people cease to exist when we move away from them. We move on, some way or the other, we forget their tiny details. We forget their flaws, their strengths. But, when they come back into our lives, we cease to believe that they still exist.
             I’ve forgotten so many people and places I didn’t want to forget. And I remember so many people and places I wanna forget.

             Life is just so weird.

Third YouTube video: INDIVIDUALITY

For the longest time, I’ve felt that I’m different. Not ‘good’ different but more of a ‘weird’ different. Somehow, I always stand out way and blend in at the same time. Kinda hard to explain. It just feels like I’m a completely different colour than everyone else. Everyone is in perfect sync, they create perfect melodies. But I ruin the symphony. Everyone fits in perfectly in the program. But I’m a glitchy hologram.

Without further ado, Here’s my third video:

I’ve tried to improve the quality of my video. I actually wrote a script this time! And I tried to edit it the best I could. Hope you all like it!

If you all like it, please LIKE, COMMENT, SUBSCRIBE and SHARE! It’s all free anyway!

Do You feel that you’re a different colour? If so, which colour do YOU perceive you to be?

Musicians and Music

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I come back home disgruntled,
I come back crushed and crumpled.
I stress over homework and panic.
In go my earphones calming my manic.
In flows the music calming, soothing
In goes happiness, me, myself losing.
The music flows through me,
The beautiful, energising symphony.
The calm fights the interrupting noise.
Everything is swallowed by the voice.
Everything is better because of them,
Everything they improve, those gems.
They have the power to raise,
They give love that boasts of praise.
They take away my frustrated tears,
And give courage to fight my fears.
And the music enwraps my heart.
And it sticks together the broken parts.
All of them are a lyrical masterpiece.
All of them put my mind to peace.
All of them wipe away my sadness,
Only to replace it with gladness.