Hello again! And 9th Video – ‘Compliments’!

So, I’ve been gone for more than a month! Yikes! Some of you who used to read my poems must be like,”She blogged so much and so frequently earlier, what happened to that?” Well, I’ve been busy. No that’s a lie. I’ve been procrastinating. A lot. About everything. Family, friends, chores, and studies. Hell, I even procrastinate about watching anime and YouTube videos! And I love them both so much!

It’s just that every time I wanna do something for me, like making videos or blogging, for example, a new project from college comes along and those aren’t really fun. Group projects can go suck it. I get overwhelmed by all these tasks – the writing, the working, the studying, and the working out that I do either a few of them or none at all. So stupid of me.

Anyhoo, I know I’ve started this post on a sad note, but let my new video cheer you up! That’s right, I finally posted a video! So, this one is all about compliments and how people react to them. Get ready to laugh, relate and learn!

So tell my how do you react to compliments? Did you miss me? Do you like chocolate? Okay, enough with the questions. If you guys like this video, please COMMENT, LIKE, SHARE & SUBSCRIBE! It’s all free anyway! Also, comment about anything! Let’s chat! 😀

One Year Blog Anniversary + New Video!

On 26th July of 2015, an Indian girl named Ramsha started a blog called Ramexabella, ’cause Ramexa was taken. And now, it’s the 26th July of 2016. This person you known as Ramsha, has changed so much, and at the same time, not really.

Thank you all for being here, even after a year. It means a lot to me that strangers like my stuff enough to star it and also to comment on some of my posts. No, but in all seriousness, I’m glad you’re all still here! Just imagine, If I had a year-old baby, it would probably be able to walk now! Babies are just so *gappu! 

Gappu – a slang Hindi word meaning, cute and chubby. Usually used to describe babies and animals. Speaking of animals, cats are just the cutest things ever! They’re so fluffy and they make little mewing sounds and… I need to stop rambling! But first, #CatsAreBetterThanDogs

 

Okay, now onto the video stuff. I’ve had varying degrees of acne ever since I was thirteen and it used to take a toll on my self-esteem. I would feel really good about myself until I would look into a mirror. Everyone I knew seemed to constantly remind me of the many spots on my face.

But now, after so many years of self-doubt I’ve come to the conclusion that I AM PRETTY. It’s as simple as that. My pimples aren’t me. Hell, 99% of what makes me, ME isn’t even physical! So I refuse to let acne take over me and I’m gonna stop hiding behind layers of foundation and concealer.

If you want to watch an audio-visual medium of me talking about acne, check out my newest video!

If you relate to this video, please give it a big thumbs up! Do COMMENT, SHARE & SUBSCRIBE! It’s all free anyway!

 

 

New Video!200 Subscribers Special! Q & A!

Hello everyone! I know that I’ve been AFK  (Away From Keyboard) for a long time now but that was because I got an internship! And, I had many project submissions and I didn’t have any new poem ideas.

Truthfully, cutting out blogging and YouTube out has been pretty rough because I’ve stayed away from two of my biggest passions for such a long time.

And from now on, I’m gonna post a new video every Sunday!! And I’ll also post a poem every week without fail! So without further ado, here’s my new video:

Also, if you like this video, please give it a big thumbs up! And please COMMENT, SHARE & SUBSCRIBE!!! It’s free anyway!

 

Where I’ve Been and Self-Help Tips

Hello! You may remember me as Ramexa or better yet, Ramsha or not. The reason why I’ve been away from the blogosphere for almost a month is ’cause I had my finals. Of the second semester. Of college. And if you’re anything like me, you leave all your studying until, literally the very last moment. Bad move. Really bad move.

Also, I had a huge writer’s block. Not because of exams. But because of my thinking. I was addicted to negative thoughts and feelings all the time. About everything and everyone. But most of all, I thought very bad of myself. What a huge, dumb mistake. Listen to me, don’t go on hating yourself, ’cause you’re gonna be stuck in YOUR body all your life, so you might as well learn to love yourself. And if you’re having some trouble with that, I highly recommend The Secret by Rhonda Byrne and every video by FlightMediocrity.

The Secret discusses mainly The Law Of Attraction. It basically means that each every thought of yours creates your life. So, in a nutshell, if you think you’re stupid, you’re stupid. If you think you’re awesome, you’re awesome.

The FlightMediocrity YouTube channel consists of self-help book reviews with a twist. Each and every video is animated, and through animations, Malkhaz, discusses and teaches the audience about the teachings of a particular book.

This is my favourite video by FlightMediocrity:

Just watch it. You’ll thank me later.

And if all this still doesn’t help you, and music is more your thing, here are some of my favourite happy songs. I hope these help.

1)Pharrell Williams – Happy

 

2)Demi Lovato – Confident

 

3)Queen – We Are The Champions

 

4)Fall Out Boy – I Don’t Care

 

5)Panic! At The Disco – Victorious

 

I’m back everyone! Feels awesome to be back!

If you like this post, do LIKE, COMMENT & FOLLOW!

Also, BIG ANNOUNCEMENT! I’ve started a Blogger blog as well! It’s gonna be all about movies! Do check out my first Blogger post here – http://ramexabella.blogspot.in/

 

5th video – ‘Why I hate Sales!’ + Q & A

Hello everyone! I have finally uploaded a new video! Well, a month and ten days to be exact. I blame college. And anime. So, without further ado, here’s my new video!

If you guys like it, please LIKE, COMMENT, SUBSCRIBE & SHARE! Also, please subscribe! I’m trying to reach my goal of 200 subscribers by the end of this month!

 

Ps. You don’t need to have a separate YouTube account to subscribe. Your YouTube account is connected to your mail. So, if you log in to your mail, you will be able to log into YouTube.

 

And now for the Q & A!

Luna’s questions!

1) Where do you get inspiration for your writing?

I never plan ANY of my posts. If I get a new, amazing idea out of nowhere, and if it’s good enough, I make it into a post or a poem. I just post whatever I think is good. Whatever I think has to be said. It’s all my jumbled ideas finding order. But I can definitely say that my writing represents what I feel at a particular moment.

 

2) What’s your favourite animal?

PANDAS!!!! They’re just so adorable! Plus, they’re black and white and Asian! They’re the least racist animals out there. Also, the new Kung Fu Panda movie came out, so I’m all the more in love with them!

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happyme’s questions:

1) What’s your favourite book and why?

The Hunger Games trilogy! The idea is just fantastic! Although many people say that it’s a rip-off of Battle Royale, it really isn’t. It’s just too different. Also, if you like The Hunger Games and anime, I highly recommend Future Diary, Btooom!, and Eden of the East.

 

2) What is your ideal vacation?

Japan in the cherry blossom season, which typically is from March to April.

 

3) What are you most looking forward to this year?

My trip to Sharjah! My aunt lives there and she’s invited me over to stay at her home. Plus I have a four year old cousin who’s simply the cutest baby girl ever!

 

Elm’s questions:

1) Why do you like making videos?

I’m gonna answer that question in my new video!

 

2) What’s your best memory?

I have a lot of amazing memories, but my recent favourite has been when my dad and I went to a really far away mall. We hadn’t been able to hang out for a month because we both were extremely busy with work and college respectively. We shopped a lot, talked a lot and had a blast. The whole day was just so calming and cheerful.

 

3) How many languages can you speak?

Since I’m an Indian, I speak Hindi fluently. I can also understand Gujarati and French a little. Also, I have an awesome Japanese vocabulary; of about 20 words!

 

Ameena k.g’s question:

1) What’s love according to you?

Adoration. Respect. And trust. Also, whatever you love has the power to hurt you the most. Love is dark chocolate.

 

Mon’s question:

1) Which author do you wish to be more like?

I have a few authors I admire here on WordPress!

My absolute favourite writers are:

Poeteer: Wesley’s poems are so simple yet so powerful. I can only wish my poems are as good as his.

dray0308: Danny’s posts are all about positivity and healing. His blog also gives bloggers a chance to mingle and also to discover new, amazing blogs.

Mindoftannguyen: Tan Nguyen’s poems are simply beautiful. Beautifully written and beautifully detailed.

Eyes + Words: This website headed by Jacob Ibrag gives aspiring writers to showcase their talent. Each and every poem found on this site is pure perfection.

 

Izrael’s question:

1) Where did you get your writing inspiration from?

All my writing stems from my thoughts. I just write to get a clear idea of what I’m thinking.

 

Hiba’s question:

1) Do you find it challenging and intimidating to put yourself out there on the site as a woman of colour?

Well first of all, I’m girl. I’m only 18! Second, no I really don’t. But I have come across a lot of mixed reviews of my videos from my ‘friends’ and family. I’ll talk about this more in detail in my newest video.

 

What is the point?

Warning: An extremely personal and long post ahead. If you take the time to read it, comment. It’s compulsory. 

Oblivion. We all are oblivious of our pasts, well atleast most of us non-historians are.

       Yesterday, I had been feeling very helpless, shattered even. You see, I have a YouTube channel and since I’m not very ‘popular’ no one seems to wanna watch it. “But Ramsha, people don’t have time for someone as inconsequential as you,” is something what you would say to me. I know. “Maybe your videos just plain suck.” Yes, I completely agree. The first one sucked a lot, the second one sucked a little lesser, the third one sucked even lesser and the fourth one sucked the least. I’m working as hard as I can in order for them to not suck. And since, I put in the most effort in filming and editing the fourth video, I’m damn proud of it. I tried my best. And as we all know, the basic aim of anything one has put a lot of hard work in, is to be noticed. So, in order for everyone to know that I did something more worthwhile with my life, I shared the video with all the important and semi-important and not-so-important people in my Whatsapp contacts list. I’m not saying that one has to applaud me by saying,”Damn! That was an amazing video! Great job!” No.

      Even if someone takes the time to tell me,”Your video sucks!” I would be happy. But when people read my texts and don’t reply, my heart breaks a little. I mean how can one judge something when they haven’t even watched it? And it wasn’t just one or two people who didn’t say anything, it was about thirty people. THIRTY PEOPLE.

Not only that, one of my insanely popular classmates at college made a very professional-looking video with others’ help and got over 600 views in a day. At first it bothered me. A lot. A LOT lot. But then I decided to let it pass. I don’t own the right to make videos. I alone don’t own the right to love YouTube. To make videos. Hell, for all I know, his video would’ve got a million views by now. Good for him, and I genuinely mean it.

“But Ramsha, you’re not gonna get a million views in a day. No one will know about you so soon. Why are you even making these videos? What is the point of all this?” Is something else you would say in order to console and question me at the same time.

Well let me tell ya, till now, in these glorious eighteen years of my life, I haven’t found something I excel at, and making videos might serve as the gateway for movie-making. Maybe directing is the right direction for me. I dunno. I’m still living through this thing called life. I’m just making this all up as I go along.

That brings me to why I felt so helpless. I felt that all my day’s-worth of editing was for naught. I felt that I didn’t need to work so hard for something that no one would watch, something that no one would even care about. No one would want to watch an unpopular person. No one. It got so bad that I had a panic attack. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t think. I couldn’t calm down. I wouldn’t calm down.

I explained all of this to my dad. “Daddy, no one cares. Everyone just asks me that why I am doing all this. No one seems to answer my texts. I mean why can’t they JUST, just look at the goddamn video once?! Do they see through all my insecurities and say ‘Hey! This girl sucks! She literally has an invisible Loser sign on her head which is only seen by us! MUAHAHA! Let’s make her feel even more worthless by not watching her stupid, boring video!’ ”

“Ramsha, just try harder. Become better at this. If making videos is what you wanna do, just give it your all. Just give it your best shot. Eventually, someone important will notice. Just, be patient. Try harder. Just keep on moving forward. These people who haven’t replied do not matter. Don’t just give up. Don’t give up on yourself.” My dad said with a hug.

And I did feel better once my dad said all that. He and my mom are the only two people who will back me up no matter what. They’re the absolute best.

But something else bothered me. Once I realised what it was, the thought grew like a virus. It consumed me. Saddened me. I said to myself,” What is the point of all this? Of life? Am I supposed to rule the world and live an extravagant life, or am I supposed to blend in with the other fellow mundane human beings? All of this, all this effort won’t even matter in a say a hundred years. I’ll be dead. No one will remember me anyway. I’ll live a mundane and die a mundane.” I just felt empty. It felt like all my creativity, all my zest was sucked out by those existential questions. I was anxious. I was deeply unhappy.

But then I realised something, I was not going to give up on MY dreams just because some insignificant people did not validate me by not watching my hard-work. Dammit, I am going to work harder and smarter. And if those blasted existence-questioning questions bother me, I’ll just exercise or better yet, watch some anime. Or eat some chips. And, finally:

‘I WILL WORK HARD.  I’LL MAKE IT COUNT. I HAVE TO. I JUST HAVE TO.’

 

And if any of you guys feel an existential crisis arising due to some unimportant people or events, just remember – ‘ YOU ARE THE POINT.

If anyone else feel this way, please comment. Let’s all face this together. Let’s kick it to the curb. Just comment.  

Whew! I feel much better now.

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you!

Thank you all so much for watching and appreciating my videos! I’ve reached my goal of 100 subscribers for this year! I’m greatly humbled and honoured by all the positive feedback I’ve been getting. Now, I can get a custom URL! If you type YouTube.com/RamexaRocks, my channel pops up! Yay!

Once again, thank you all!

And, if you guys haven’t seen it yet, do check out my newest video – ‘My Talents’

4th Video: My ‘Talents’

Hello everyone! Since this year is coming to an end, I’ve been self-reflecting a lot recently. Don’t we all?

We all tend to look at the Highs and Lows of the year that has been. But rather than just making a look-back at 2015, I decided to add a twist by showcasing some of my unique ‘talents’. So, without further ado, here’s my newest video!

If you all like this video, please LIKE, COMMENT, SUBSCRIBE & SHARE! It’s FREE anyway! Do comment some of your special ‘talents’.

Please do Subscribe! 😀

You can subscribe here :- https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC8hbnyGBesRb8vdvszoBJkw

PPS. I’ve used a new video-editor called Wondershare Filmora. Needless to say, they’ll be a lot more effects in this, as well as the future videos.

Third YouTube video: INDIVIDUALITY

For the longest time, I’ve felt that I’m different. Not ‘good’ different but more of a ‘weird’ different. Somehow, I always stand out way and blend in at the same time. Kinda hard to explain. It just feels like I’m a completely different colour than everyone else. Everyone is in perfect sync, they create perfect melodies. But I ruin the symphony. Everyone fits in perfectly in the program. But I’m a glitchy hologram.

Without further ado, Here’s my third video:

I’ve tried to improve the quality of my video. I actually wrote a script this time! And I tried to edit it the best I could. Hope you all like it!

If you all like it, please LIKE, COMMENT, SUBSCRIBE and SHARE! It’s all free anyway!

Do You feel that you’re a different colour? If so, which colour do YOU perceive you to be?